Tuesday 25 November 2008

I wish I had a Mall!!!

I was tired, have been walking for some hours. My feet begun to feel like prunes soaked in cold milk. Very cold milk. My legs, my thighs were stones that were about to crush every step and I haven’t managed to meet up with Santa either. My spirit was crushed and Tobi had to be carried, crying in the darkness surrounded only by snowflakes falling and people shopping for the Big XM or just for the habit… I sat down on Rotuari on the steps of the fountain that is only a fountain for 5 months of the year.

Apparently it is immoral, abnormal and antisocial. A police car, a van stopped, engines running. Inside two guys wearing immaculate uniforms fitting wonderfully their pail skin, blue eyes and short, blond hair. They had a video camera and somehow I managed to be recorded by it. I must have aroused suspicion, the way I was sitting there, cup, a paper cup with steaming coffee - I know, but I have 3 a week - in one hand and a cigarette in another. It’s winter. And I sat down outside. Maybe a drunkard! Worst! A terrorist! Worst! The devil! WORST!!! Anti Consumerist otherwise peaceful and innocent bystander!!!!

It’s wasn’t Tobi. He wasn’t there. He went inside to the loo. To Bisketi and I think he must have met some friend or just someone friendly or the Pullas and other bakes must have looked so good that he couldn’t leave for a while. He caught up with me at home and we had dinner together. The whole family.

We didn’t manage to meet Santa in town. Wanted to talk to him about something but he is ever so elusive. I don’t know what’s going on. You think I could just call him but he doesn’t have a phone. Of course one could skype him but I heard that his laptop has been sort of nicked by the elves and the skype connection became a hotline to Amnesty. By the elves. They slaves. They have given up their free roaming, independent and noble savage lifestyle dictated by spirit, the very inner spirit we all have. Freedom. They have compromised for that spirit cannot exist without maintaining its material vessel, the body. Thus elven society was born and subdued to Santa’s reign. (In Finland at least, north of Oulu) In return for giving up freedom they have achieved the physical security but the price is incomprehensible. Now they are trying to get amnesty international to take up their case. Help them brake free from slavery. Unfortunately Amnesty only takes on high profile, winnable cases and we all know that Elves are low profile creatures. Ask any child. Has any of them ever actually really seen one? Of course not. Right?

Elves should know, and if any of you are reading know than that Santa is a slave himself! A 24/7 availability thing. Almost like a prime minister but worst. And of course while it is easy to rise up against a physical structure, a state of oppression if you like it is impossible to rise against the fabric that it is sown from; for elves are a product of their society, a source in essence of their own misery.

I promised no politics yesterday, If my memory doesn’t cheat me but it shouldn’t! I am only coming up 30 not 70...
I wish I was a dragon. They live practically forever.
Tobi says it’s boring. The grass is always green somewhere else eh?
Right now probably under a lot of snow.

We scared a dog out of its skin today. Unfortunately there was no visual. I banged the mopping device against a door by accident. The dog must have been lying just on the other side and although we often get barked at from behind doors by four legged ones who think that we are going to scrub or steal away their precious PVC flooring from the corridors this one was different. It was funny. We really gave it a fright. Tobi still laughing outside fell and rolled in the snow then wanted to get under my coat for comfort. That wasn’t funny. He managed an passer byes looked at me with that typical condemning look where they try to look as if not condemning but one can really tell. Which they know. And they know that you know but they don’t mind it really so much so of course it is curious than why try hiding it?
I guess for the sake of typing.
The keyboard probably tastes of Duck flavoured Noodle soup. I am not licking it. Maybe Tobi will clean it off later…

Yeah, Channel 4 news has grown boring. What’s on the news anyway? I can tell! Wanna know?
Gordon Brown got to gambling, serious gambling
Obama really should be sitting in the oval thingy cause he already calls the shots anyway
It’s scary that people maybe have less money to do their big XM shopping this year, is the world gonna end?
As for the rest of the world? ‘The rest is silence’

So Mikhail Bakunin is an interesting read. Something thay you wont find out from 4news
I hear he really couldn’t stand Marx

The title…

Sunday 23 November 2008

Gush! It’s dark!!!!

…and with that I feel like I shouldn’t be writing anything else in good keeping with this last week.
But again! I feel the duty in this blog. Even some enthusiastic calling.
And a dragon who by the way I have learned from Lili has got a friend. Smirky smile when I ask about it. Her name is Elena. She is just a friend of some sort I am told. Interesting. I am only a little disappointed I had to find out from Lili. But I guess Tobi can talk and share with others too.

I guess they must have met in Brazil about a week ago when Tobi was there on church adventures which he kind of liked, the adventures but came to the same conclusion as me about the content. Oh well!

Trying to remember this past week and I realise that I should have been writing more often. Or at least I should make some notes for it is difficult to remember highlight events in his absence while he is mostly quiet about the adventures in the sunshine, wild churches and stuff. I don’t know though. It joust sound so Finnish to me. I wonder… has she just made it up?! I mean Lili.
But why would he be so aloof about it?
Dropping it the thing to do.


I met an interesting magpie. In fact I have met a lot of interesting birds the last week. I think it probably has a link with the new habit of reusing the old bread we happen to accumulate in our house as bird feed. One of these days I deposited a vast amount of crumbs outside our office at Yliopisto katu 16 when I arrived at work. It was cold. Dark and everything felt empty. All but me were asleep at 05:54.

Couple of hours later I sat outside on the bench enjoying a warm cup of tea and anticipating sunrise only 23 minutes away by then when this guy appeared. First he landed on the spot where I left the crumbs earlier then he came and sat on the roof a few meters away from where I sat. He stuck his dead over the edge and looked at me curiously. Then he came closer and tried to motion - I don’t understand magpie you know, not well at least - so he tried to show me with his head where the food should be. He flew there again and looked at me questioningly ‘are you really so dumb that you don’t get what I’m trying to say here buddy?’ I told him I understood when he came back again to the edge of the roof but I think his Human was rustier than my Magpie. Similar stories happened outside our house with different kinds.

The absolute highlight of the week however was going to town with Lili to watch a Hungarian made movie, a piece screened during the International Children’s Film Festival. I thought it would be great to see something in the cinema in Hungarian. Some people walked out after 20 minutes and I was tempted to join. The makers thought that making a 70 minutes long show without talking in it is a wonderful idea. I disagreed. Lili was bored out of her head but did not want to leave. It was not fun!

The wind is howling outside throwing snow around as if it was just some light fluffy substance. Darkness is permanent now if one blinks at midday. Winter is moving in and although South wind has had some revival… she is gone now. I dream of being somewhere else…
Brazil… Sunshine…

Saturday 15 November 2008

Psychology of Friday and some other stuff

It was Friday yesterday. Really it is Friday every Friday. How thrilling. I realised that it was Friday for me as well. The past year I haven’t enjoyed this fantastic day with the rest of you who probably did. No. I worked through all weekends and learnt how to block the feeling of Friday eventually completely eradicating it from my mind.

Tobi hasn’t a clue what I am talking about and he didn’t have yesterday either till I taught him how to tap into the energy I only rediscovered for myself again this most recent Friday. Enough to imagine Europe. 200-300, perhaps 400 or maybe 500-600 million people, depends on what you count as Europe. A lot of people anyway and so many of them Friday afternoon finishes work for the week and feels genuinely happy to be free from this burden for the coming two days. All that similar feelings join up somehow strengthening, reassuring one and other till participants feel happier and more relived than they really have reason to be so. Quite like at new year’s eve when in the same instants in any time zone hundreds of millions go wildly happy not knowing why really.

Tobi at this point was puzzled so I begun to explain from a spiritual perspective. What happens in a decent church for instance. Participants’ prayers through a mass focus great energy which in return generates more energy - just by the nature of the universe - till everyone is wild with joy. It’s quite nice when happens and when I was younger, much younger I did have a bit of a hobby seeking out different churches trying to get carried away in this occasional euphoria till I eventually concluded that I cannot there because the content of thoughts was incompatible with my otherwise open mind.

We only managed to contact with Friday mood for a very brief period, after all, I had to overcome old and well built defences in my system and Tobi is just generally slow and unfocused. It gave him a high though and now finding out about the churches and stuff he is desperate to try them for himself. I don’t know hat to think about it, should I advise him into a direction where he surely will find this phenomenon or should I send him in a direction where he will find boredom and guilt hoping he will shortly get discouraged? Perhaps I should let him discover the whole thing for himself. Would be the wisest.

Otherwise the days pass just the ways one would expect from them. Kela, which I thought to love me seems to have forgotten that I approached it with new ideas of getting money… I will have to go again. Snow has fallen again although not enough to build much other than a penguin. Nothing against penguins, don’t misinterpret my words. That goes to other things written above as well!

The snow was preceded with a frost of minus 7 Celsius. Tobi once again thought it was fairly cold. Almost as harsh language as last time used but maybe somewhat lighter. I could be getting used to it but I hope to believe that isn’t the case. The new job provides him with serious comforts however for days when the cold hits. Which days will be more and more frequent fro the coming 3 months till the temperature rising to minus 15 Celsius will feel like a wonderful relief. A heat wave

Sauna!

There are lots of them and as with my colleagues we are trusted with cleaning them all we have the keys thus Tobi has places to be warm. I pointed out to him to be careful. Do not stay too long for the danger of falling asleep in there is incalculably high at this time of the year. So far he has been doing good.

Lili and I went for a walk today to the post office which is by the way closed on Saturday mornings. They not popular with me now. I explained to Lili my new line of work. She wondered why people cannot just clean the staircases in their own houses (blocks), why do I have to do it? Well, it is a question that could have a very long answer explaining specialisation of professions and jobs through the process of building a capitalist

Thursday 13 November 2008

Forgotten Blog

10.11.08

The 80 Days of Darkness


Tobi is back from his shopping trip and was sad to hear that missing the weekend event for the prisoners meant only one thing for him; missing crazy amount of food. He wants a remake soon as possible but the international writing circle of Oulu, who dubbed themselves prisoners meet up for such abundance of food and words once a year only. Sad.

His clothes look really good on him, cosy as… hell today. Could a dragon sweat he would have. Mild day. West coast of Scotland weather. At this time of the year here it is a heat wave riding on south wind revitalized, strong and persistent. For the time being Winter is not here. I don’t know where she is but I must say not here. I don’t know what to say about it. Tobi is disappointed because he has wanted more and more snow for more and more action in connection with it but we got an overheating fire breathing dragon wrapped up in super warm and eventually dump clothes now hanging on the heater.

I almost want her to pop in, Winter and stay still spring. The 80 days darkness has begun and I must say it is dark. Some snow would brighten things a bit. The 80 days darkness isn’t really dark for that long of course, not here. It is the period that begins when while going to get Lili from Day Care conditions rapidly start getting dark and by the time we are home it is dark. Will remain so till lunch the following day. Well, real late breakfast.

Moses remains where he settled.



13.11.08
They all demand my attention…
All the time
I have ideas for other blogs too and some stories cooking. But they, these creatures around don’t let me!
Tobi has nearly fallen asleep today. Really, winter time asleep. We were on the eighths floor cleaning stairs in my new job where I clean lots of stairs and saunas - he likes that but I sweat - and take lots of breaks which I like but up there on the top of the stairs he said something under his nose I couldn’t understand so I said ‘what?’ turning to him witnessing him passing out and falling down the stairs… (a long sentence that should really be shorter)

7th floor stopped him and the journey there woke him but some concerns arouse from the incident and now he is desperate to stay awake.
He wanted to get into coffee, mate, green tea but I explained that way might heart attack takes him by spring or one day he will just fall asleep and even falling to the ground flour will only break his neck but will not wake him… He goes and rolls in the snow every half hour and decided on sleeping on the window sill in the living room. There is a terrible draft. Good place to fly kites.

I have removed Moses from our bed the other day only to find him there again next morning.
She - my wife - keeps talking to me about education. Breaking my heart.

Thursday 6 November 2008

Ice again, and lost in translation or just making things up…

Tobi has several problems with recent and most recent events. First of all he is angry with Jen, my wife who is apparently catching us out with making things historically inappropriate. I tried to defend myself that in Hungarian things are different but unfortunately in a different way so I came to admit that I was wrong. And that hurts.
Tobi.
I am occasionally used to it. On the rare occasion I will take it. Rarely.
The Holy Roman Empire although existed, it wasn’t the late Roman Empire as I remembered. It was a long time ago and my memory goes blurry going thousands of years back. The HRM existed after the fall of the RM and was mostly a German empire with the Pope. Vandals by then have integrated into the new feudalist system. In fact, they may have, their descendants were part of that HRM and thus their people provided the Pope with some sorely needed soldiers.

What a turn of events. A hint of irony.
Just like a Democrat winning the white house after 8 years of Republican rule. Less irony, more nature of democracy and taking turns and stuff like that.

Or is the fuss not about that?… I’m getting some gentle nods. Probably not. Anyway, stay out of politics is my motto and I return to contemplate crossing the road where a traffic light is or how to smile at northerners without scaring them…

After all this ranting and gentle reminder that even I have a publisher I must please and correct such historical inconsistencies like the HRM it is time now to start writing about some more worldly affairs. Such us the election, which I will skip.
Then there is that research that has been published recently, a couple of days back actually that links human activity to the melting of arctic and Antarctic ice. When saying Links I mean it does. Hard fact so that’s us knowing it but I feel they had some real bed timing with the publishing don’t you think so?
There is the other recent news, also a couple of days old that Russia is moving missiles, nukes into the Baltic region. Got to give it to them, their timing is pretty good.

Tobi is bored. I don’t blame him. Ever since, which was very recently, I have read somewhere that I occasionally slip in some politics I just get carried away. Tobi is bored, still.

Ok, it’s time, but I am trying to avoid it because I feel for him a bit and I am concerned that he might feels a bit embarrassed. What happened this morning you know has left some marks on me. Not physical fortunately but still. I never heard a dragon use such language…
… even now I can hardly find words although… I keep trying.

What I have been listening to cycling to work is something that the print couldn’t carry. He can swear! Eventually we agreed that he will go on another shopping trip over the weekend. Of course he will have to get over to his uncle, Bob first in Vietnam to give him some money than probably to Paris although I hope that I managed to convince him that he would be better of with Kashmir and from what he picked up there somewhere north in Canada or the like. He is gonna go on some clothes shopping again. His nice designer fashion scarves and hats in the minus 7 don’t seem to work so much to his advantage. A bit of a shame but at least he agreed to wait. Over the weekend I will be away anyway with a bunch of prisoners in a cottage. It sounds bad and he is scared to come.

Of course Tobi has seen this cold before… once or twice. When he came to live with us first it wasn’t much warmer but I guess it’s the principle. Then it was the end of the winter, the very same thing that is approaching now and we are just simply scared of it somehow. He is just a bit into drama I think.

Tomorrow will be a sad day for us all. I finish working in the five story office block and thus we will have no more free pulla and biscuit coming home with me. To cheer up on the way home we will drop by at Lili’s day care where we will be celebrating Father’s Day or something like that with eating - free - sausages

Sunday 2 November 2008

Snow and...

Vandalism!

Moses has found his winter shelter actually some time ago. I just thought it may be time to mention before I forget again. For the last couple of weeks he could be found in our bed. It is a bit unsettling to share our bed with a teddy bear yet somehow oddly comforting. Several times I have tried to get rid of him, even throwing him out outright but I turn and there he is. Berry season has finished long ago and I guess he realised there is nothing left worth living for but obviously bears have a different take on things. Sleep it out when times get a bit depressing and start afresh when the sun is bright and the bringer of warm winds again. In these times of desperation, desperate yet depressed this might be a hint for us all. Can you imagine Las Vegas shutting up for 6 months, everyone asleep till better times? Would be spooky so I guess they could have managed at least Halloween well. Tobi says Moses looked at him with disapproving, sleepy eyes when told by the dragon he won’t sleep this winter.

He is too happy now. Especially that the white stuff fell on us on Friday. Getting home was a misery for me. He just couldn’t get enough of it. In the park with leftover bread we fed some birds who were ever so gracious. When we run out of crumbs the ducks turned around and walked away as if nothing has happened. The ones that didn’t turn around instantly stared through us as if we weren’t there yet still addressing us saying things that sounded a bit like ‘bastards’ and ‘is this all you give damned fools!’
Tobi sneezed quickly and that put them into their place. Back in the water quicker than you thought a duck could move. Although Ducks can move faster than you think. I heard gossips that in the old times, before a lot of things have happened they were into racing a lot. Now they just shouted stuff like ‘Vandals!’

A nearby Magpie seemed to have had a good laugh at them. We joined in.

Today I somehow ended up feeding the ducks again. They were much more polite this time. Finally the thing downed on them, a party where we bring the food and they do the eating. They all politely introduced themselves. I can remember only Ashley and Bob. Yeah, and Robert.


Saturday morning we weren’t out quite yet at the crack of dawn but managed eventually to enjoy the snow only after 6 months it has all finally melted. A snow angel, a snow cat ready to jump but not quite managing, a snow castle for really little people but wonderful turrets and doorways and Wall-E. One of our neighbours has built a realistically sized Tobi probably trying to signal that they are ok with us having a dragon in the area and all. He really liked it.


A quiet weekend, Halloween passed us completely oblivious apart from maybe lighting a candle or two and building a Charley and Lola inspired Halloween castle.

The Vandals made an appearance.

Today we were enjoying Sunday morning for a change. Which hasn’t really happened besides a swift and stressful holiday to Hungary for the pas year or so when looking out the window around 11 I see that some kids who live in our neighbourhood have felt that our snow creations were disturbing the peace. Maybe they mistaken them to idols worshiped by unwanted pagans so Tobi-copy lost its head and so did wallE with arms ripped off. Cat’s head was kicked a few meters away from him and the snow castle was broken too. I feel for a person, especially so young who feels the need to do such things and hereby I will blame the media. Although I know that things are far more complicated than that. Tobi had to be restrained for several hours. We had lunch in the meantime.

The day has passed.

By the way, Vandals supposedly were no more vandalious than other tribes taking a bite from the then Holy Roman Empire. Just for the record